Hope for the existence of the one..

What most of you see is all fine and well on the surface. Inside is another story. I am crying out. Dying to understand who I am and what I'll be. Dying to know why my heart breaks into a million pieces over the most stupid thing also known as a boy. I am impatiently waiting to bust out of this barrier of lies and show all my true colors, to let them shine and be known to the world. And to go along with that impatience is the existence of fear/denial/rejection, which quite possibly could be the cause behind so many years passed and still no barrier breaking. In all, I am screaming, yelling, crying out for the one who will truly save me. It is him that I would give my whole heart to.